It is not *just* that my students are practicing for Annie, Jr....it's one of my favorite musicals. And during rough times, I think of this song to remind me that no matter how yucky my life may feel, nothing in my little life is so horrible that will stop tomorrow...and well, usually things seem a little better when that inevitable tomorrow comes.
But lately...I've realized it goes so much further than that! Let me take you back a few steps... in the past year, I have been through some *interesting* events...from my car running me into a concrete wall (and being able to walk away), deaths of awesome people, some very hurtful conversations with people I trusted and I thought knew me, moving twice, discovering some health problems and trying to heal them, some very trying obstacles and accusations to a testing irregularity and dead calculator that not only caused tears but should've caused the scores to be cancelled and there's even more. In all of this...not only has the sun come out tomorrow, God has done some crazy amazing things! And in each and every one of these yucky circumstances, I was stripped of everything I could hold onto except Him including/especially my control. (I do have an awesome family adn friends!) Each of these wild and wacky things...that normally don't all happen in just one year...truly has been training me to trust Him more and more. What choice did I have? :o)
As I spend more time with him, He shows me bits and pieces of reality that just blow me away. This is my miracle year. The fact that I am alive is a miracle...after the accident, yes....but it would be anyway. Life is a miracle. We just take it for granted because it is all around us. Each of those wild and wacky circumstances brought a miracle and showed His power in SUCH a mighty way! It is astounding to think about how much I have been blessed to witness and well, just receive....FAR beyond anything I could ever deserve. (But that's grace mixed with His glory for ya!)
Now, something else has happened...and I'm not really ready to talk about it....but it hurts...and it is not fair. (When were we promised fair?) But I was thinking about how it will take another miracle for, well, ANYthing to happen beyond this pain. I am not sure what I want to happen, and I surely don't feel there is anything within me that can make something happen. It will take an act of God for this to work out...just like all of the other miracles this year. And as I begin to wonder if there is a limit on miracles in a year for one person, how many little things will He just take care of in a way that is ONLY Him....because you have nothing left...your hands are tied, I realize- that is precisely the point. Nothing would ever happen without His intervention, His grace, and His glory.
...not even the sun coming out tomorrow.
But lately...I've realized it goes so much further than that! Let me take you back a few steps... in the past year, I have been through some *interesting* events...from my car running me into a concrete wall (and being able to walk away), deaths of awesome people, some very hurtful conversations with people I trusted and I thought knew me, moving twice, discovering some health problems and trying to heal them, some very trying obstacles and accusations to a testing irregularity and dead calculator that not only caused tears but should've caused the scores to be cancelled and there's even more. In all of this...not only has the sun come out tomorrow, God has done some crazy amazing things! And in each and every one of these yucky circumstances, I was stripped of everything I could hold onto except Him including/especially my control. (I do have an awesome family adn friends!) Each of these wild and wacky things...that normally don't all happen in just one year...truly has been training me to trust Him more and more. What choice did I have? :o)
As I spend more time with him, He shows me bits and pieces of reality that just blow me away. This is my miracle year. The fact that I am alive is a miracle...after the accident, yes....but it would be anyway. Life is a miracle. We just take it for granted because it is all around us. Each of those wild and wacky circumstances brought a miracle and showed His power in SUCH a mighty way! It is astounding to think about how much I have been blessed to witness and well, just receive....FAR beyond anything I could ever deserve. (But that's grace mixed with His glory for ya!)
Now, something else has happened...and I'm not really ready to talk about it....but it hurts...and it is not fair. (When were we promised fair?) But I was thinking about how it will take another miracle for, well, ANYthing to happen beyond this pain. I am not sure what I want to happen, and I surely don't feel there is anything within me that can make something happen. It will take an act of God for this to work out...just like all of the other miracles this year. And as I begin to wonder if there is a limit on miracles in a year for one person, how many little things will He just take care of in a way that is ONLY Him....because you have nothing left...your hands are tied, I realize- that is precisely the point. Nothing would ever happen without His intervention, His grace, and His glory.
...not even the sun coming out tomorrow.
