What if...

What if the worst thing I ever did to you was to NOT tell you how wrong you really are? 

What if in being your friend, in loving you, in living life alongside of you, I was too caught up in not being pushy and not causing you more to deal with that I didn't tell you the truth? 

What if the "little" thing that we don't talk about is what would actually make your life different?

What if it isn't about what works for you? What if I really am right? And you are really wrong? 

Would it be that bad if that's the worst thing I ever did?
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This series of questions grew out of some people watching/listening, oddly enough with VERY different situations: trivial errors at work/perfectionism and ways you do things with the same end result, how you treat others/raise children, finding health and salvation itself. 

I was shocked, intrigued and honestly heart-broken that everything seems backwards. Is it really considered more important for me to prove I am right when someone just made a mistake than when you are harming yourself or someone else (even if you don't think you are). What if you are influencing a child in a way that will make their life harder? And wow...when Hell vs a loving God comes into play, it is the worst possible thing for someone to help a friend see the Truth.

Where did all of the absolutes go in this world? The scale is so backwards....who cares if you are right about the stuff that won't last? It is hard for me to watch you hurt yourself/others when I see that you are refusing to deal with the real issue. I am sorry that it offends you, but I still want you to know the Peace, Comfort and Hope that comes with a personal relationship with God. <3

As I mentioned, these questions came to mind with a trivial mistake where people were appalled that I found it so trivial and did not "prove" myself, but it made me ask myself, "when do I need to make sure people know when they are wrong?" Seems simple. 

That was the beginning.  As I observed so many other situations, I kept hearing the same things I had thought during my trivial situation. And my mind pondered the questions as people (including myself) avoided confronting people they care about...many times because they knew that the receiving party would not actually receive this truth.  I kept envisioning apologizing to friends after everything was said and done for withholding the secret to the situation. It is one thing to be confronted about not telling a friend that you knew they made a mistake, but what if they harmed themselves or had hurt someone else so much or...died or...went to Hell...and you said nothing. What if...

**It bothers me even more how many times I avoided typing things out during this blog. Sigh. I would try to skirt the issue even as much as it infuriates me...too worried to hurt someone's feelings or upset them to say what I know is true.

Re: Growing while Shrinking

http://bible.us/1Cor6.19.NIV
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

Growing while Shrinking

I guess it all started back around June 2011. For a couple of years, I had been gaining weight like a pregnant woman without a baby. I couldn't seem to stop it, and to be honest with you, it wasn't bothering me. But one thing was....my body was FAR from a decent temple for the Holy Spirit. Why would I expect Him to dwell in something so unkempt? How incredibly disrespectful! But, I just didn't know what to do... Then, one Saturday night, my (amazing) pastor was talking about the power of time...well, and God. He pretty much dared us to give God 40 days for whatever He has put on our heart. So many times I give God 5 seconds to transform me... We need to be faithful for an extended period of time....not just once or twice...or even a week. Give Him 40 days....and watch what happens. (Note: Not because God needs the time.)

There was no doubt in my mind what the issue was that I needed His help with...but that was the thing. I didn't even know how to be faithful at this point. Nothing I tried worked...so I sat there, knowing this was a turning point, but gave it all to God:

"God, I know my body is so far from where you designed it to be, but I don't even know what to do anymore. Please send someone to teach me and help me. I really want to be faithful. I really want to stop being so disrespectful to You, but I don't...I just can't do this on my own."

Boy, was my pastor right! The best Chick-fil-A on the planet had a Summer Slimdown Challenge, and I was introduced to Dr. Lonnie Bagwell, Molly Bagwell and the rest of the lovely Lifespring Chiropractic team! I have not STOPPED learning since the moment I met them (technically a week or so before I met them). Although these last 5 months have been full of trials in many ways (deaths, betrayals, stress, serious car accident, car trouble, etc), I have not stopped learning exactly what I asked for...how God designed my body to heal itself!

With the help and dedication of Lifespring Chiropractic, I have learned a lot about the damage caused over the (many) years and already seen cuh-razy improvements in so many areas. I remember when my neck *stopped* cracking. (You'd think that would've been a red flag!) I am finally understanding how to treat my body as the temple it is....

And yes, it is already starting to heal itself! The adjustments are helping increase the communication in my body, so that it CAN function the way it is designed. I have not needed drugs to sleep in months! I rarely need my allergy medications, and I do not seem to need pain relievers which I used to be taking almost every day! Not to mention the over 50 pounds that are gone!

Through Lifespring's Nutrition program, I am learning what my body needs to function, and I am eating better and more than ever! And my only problem is my "new" food is just TOO yummy!!

By no means am I saying that I am even close to reversing all of the damage and crazy blocks in communication I have allowed to set up camp in my body, but I am *finally* being faithful. I have also learned that my gut is actually leaking... seemingly pretty badly. This means that my intestinal wall is too porous and is letting food/waste/whatever out into my bloodstream!! Obviously, that can not be a good thing! Now, we are working to heal that, so that my body can get closer and closer to working the perfect way God designed it. I am constantly in awe with the way God designed our bodies. A human being is not just a miracle when we are created, but we are walking miracles. The intricate nature of our bodies and the way it works so well (without our help and drugs) is truly fascinating.

Again, the weight-loss is not my primary goal, though it is obvious that if I am taking care of my body, I will need to lose quite a bit more weight. My primary goal has been to "get healthy" which has been a considerable process of growth...but I am pretty happy about the shrinking that it is causing as well. :o)

Holding on...

I've never been a materialistic person.  Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my toys, but it's never held much importance to me.  (Usually finding myself with little money to spend helps with this!)  But there have always been a few things that I depend upon: my laptop, my television, sugar and my car.  They were each more practical and basic "necessities" that I held on to without much conviction....even while praying for God to help me learn to depend solely on Him. (Yes, you may laugh.)

Well, in the last year, the laptop died; so did the TV; sugar was a choice to give up as part of my Capital Campaign for my Inner Temple; and well, the car (Lola) was totaled in an accident that almost took my life as well.